Happy

On a brighter note I finished my aid and my college application which is great I hope I can make it. Idk like when I see thing I want it to be great but I'm scared it not.

Sad

Okay I know this is crazy but I feel I'm not perfect I'm not non-perfect either like everyone know my name they see I still try my best in life and they see I keep pushing forward to keep going. Yeah I have people to talk to but I don't have a best friend I don't have nothing really it sad cause I miss my best friend everyday I wish I can change everything over time but I can't I wish I never left this place and stay and I still will think I would have my best bro my brother. Yeah I have a brother but Allen was my real bother no matter what no one said he always been. We been through so much in life now I'm just lost and lonely and that how my life is going to be I can say just livening to I get something better for myself. I wish I still had my old bf he understand me like no one else did. It sad that I really had to let him go and ill never see him ever aging I wish I can go back in time just to see you aging I miss you more then anything in the world ill never forget you what we share was something more then anything I ever felt in the world. Yeah I acted like a bitch but you like that about me. And I miss everyone I had fun I enjoy staying there I enjoy people company I love to talk to the kids they help me out more then any body in the world cause these kids understand my life they knew what was wrong what bother me what happened all that I feel like I wish I can go to vandyland one more time and do it over and over aging.

What bother me.

What bother me In life is I'm a statistic. What I mean by that I was born into a group that wasn't supposed to get as far as I did I was supposed to be in jail or drop out of school or anything of that sort. It pretty sad to hear that I was in that group of people when you really know me I'm the most nicest person you ever meet yeah I can't talk well or write well but I try my best to do what ever I can in life because I'm not going to fail myself and not make it. I want to make it so bad but I'm scared that something going to happen and I won't know what to do. Sometimes I wish I had follower so it could be easy for them to see we're I'm coming from on a every day basis.

My life decision

Like okay I think I want to be a fashion blogger and fashion merchandiser also a fashion designer including club promoter you know cause I want to start making money and getting myself out there so what need I to do is make card and other thing so hopefully this all work outfit me

LIFE, HOPE, DREAMS

So like I fuck up really bad I missed basically a whole month went by and I've been sleeping not going to school fucking up when I shouldn't do that. I don't know how I am going to get out of this mess hopefully I have faith in myself and I do cause I really don't know what to do now. I wish there was people on my blog maybe they can help me out with this but no I'm all alone that sucks. But sometimes I wish I leAve this small town and to somewhere in life that fun and amazing and great for me to do all the things I want to do to be free and lie my life as I wanted to I didn't want to go to school I want to just live life go to town to town you know nothing else that all I wanted to do but I'm so dumb and stupid I fuck everything up in my life. But people make mistake I guess but really I don't know how to explain it I wish I can go out of these walls and be me and free forever no drama just live my life and see where it takes me

What ever on my mind

You know I thought It will be so much different then what I seen it to be my life went down hill to up then back down to up now and I want it to stay there I feel like who ever made people there a meaning for me in life and until I see it then I know what I have to do
It crazy how everything is so different in life like I try to make my life way better but in the end it the same thing always you know. Everyone the same they act the same and all that when you leave and come back they still act the same like everyone is so different

What I'm feeling

I feel as if my life took a whole 360 lol