Sad

Okay I know this is crazy but I feel I'm not perfect I'm not non-perfect either like everyone know my name they see I still try my best in life and they see I keep pushing forward to keep going. Yeah I have people to talk to but I don't have a best friend I don't have nothing really it sad cause I miss my best friend everyday I wish I can change everything over time but I can't I wish I never left this place and stay and I still will think I would have my best bro my brother. Yeah I have a brother but Allen was my real bother no matter what no one said he always been. We been through so much in life now I'm just lost and lonely and that how my life is going to be I can say just livening to I get something better for myself. I wish I still had my old bf he understand me like no one else did. It sad that I really had to let him go and ill never see him ever aging I wish I can go back in time just to see you aging I miss you more then anything in the world ill never forget you what we share was something more then anything I ever felt in the world. Yeah I acted like a bitch but you like that about me. And I miss everyone I had fun I enjoy staying there I enjoy people company I love to talk to the kids they help me out more then any body in the world cause these kids understand my life they knew what was wrong what bother me what happened all that I feel like I wish I can go to vandyland one more time and do it over and over aging.